My Latest Dream

The last month has been exhausting. I was at home, and I always think that means I'll get a rest, but I forget that at home I have an extra job! Between that, deadlines and seeing everybody I wanted to see, it's been tiring.

Recently I had to look back at the last 5 years of my life and try and sum that up for someone. It really makes you realise the scope of what you've done. I gave myself a pat on the back after that. Then shortly afterwards, I did an interview with my friend for her radio show, and she asked what the next 5 years hold for me. After I quit dance, I made up my mind to keep my goals broad and adaptable, so as not to suffer the same heartbreak again. The best way to not have your heartbroken by a career you don't achieve or a dream you don't realise is to not set your heart on one in the first place, right? With jobs and industries changing so rapidly, and the applicant pool so competitive, sometimes you have to take different routes to the ones you thought, and sometimes your dream ends up being just that - a dream. 

However, keeping my goals relaxed and staying open-minded has ended up giving me a kind of get-out-of-jail-free card. I haven't said my deepest most secret dreams of the last 5 years out loud to anyone really. When Beth asked me at the end of my interview I realised I probably should be more hopeful about my goals, and say them out loud and put my heart on the line again. So this post is me putting it out into the universe so the universe can get working on it with me. I want to publish a book. I want to pour all the intensity of emotion of all my experiences on to a page and watch characters grow up beyond my pen. So yeah, I'm going to get working on that, and hopefully the universe will too.

x

Ps. If you'd like to listen to me talk about blogging, changing careers and working in the arts - listen to me and Beth on The Femme Collective here.